You can go out and make girls fall in love with you but you can’t make time for the girl who is already in love with you.


This is very hard for me at this moment in my life to express my heart/mind to the world, but I will say these last few months have been the worst months of my life. I was dating someone (J$tash) that abused me verbally ,emotionally and physically throughout the end duration of our relationship. Monday morning on September 15th 2014 my life was forever, changed. A person I thought and believed I could trust, whom I gave my love/time/energy to brutally punched me in my face repeatedly with his fists while I became slowly unconscious covered in blood in his brooklyn apartment bed. After he was done he told me to not tell anyone to not tell my friends, He also started to prepare legal action to protect himself in case I pressed charges against him. He cried and became unstable within his emotions and was apologetic towards his actions, but would continue to say i did this to myself.

He then boarded a flight to Japan a few hours after and has been sending me text messages claiming he will destroy me even more than he already did. He said he will ruin my life! I got brutally beaten for confronting him on infidelity which caused him to become violent in an instant.

Do not interpret this as a cry for help this is honestly a decision to speak up against domestic violence for those who cant due to the manipulative acts our abusers inflict on us to never speak up and for those who didn’t survive because of brutal domestic violence.

I will not allow myself to sit in the shadows of darkness and disrespect myself for not taking a stand.

I am speaking out for all my women!

Be brave this is what bravery looks like.

Abuser: Justin Joseph / J$tash

There are no chains like hate…dwelling on your brother’s faults multiplies your own. You are far from the end of your journey.

Gautama Buddha (via kushandwizdom)

Sometimes all you can do is not think. Not wonder. Not obsess. Not imagine. Just breathe. Breathe in, breathe out. Everything works out in the end, and the more time you spend worrying about it, the longer it takes for things to end perfectly. Just the way they should.

Once you get a taste of sleeping next to someone, sleeping in your own bed alone fucking sucks.

thinkingoutloud (via xxxl0veleenxxx)



When she says

she doesn’t love you anymore,

Roll your shoulders back

and look her in the eye

even when it feel like she’s

stabbing you with a thousand knives.

When she brings up old aches and pains

she said she’d never revisit,

just smile.

Ask her why she didn’t leave you sooner.


He never said he loved me and you think that wouldv’e made it hurt less when he left, but it didn’t.
I couldn’t get out of bed for three days straight, I hardly slept. I couldn’t think of anything, there wasn’t enough room in my head for it. I beat myself up for it, told myself I wasn’t worthy of love anyways. I spoke less, laughed too little, died a little. I couldn’t even talk about it, when they said his name, I’d flinch.
It’s been over a year now, I’ve stopped thinking about it. I can’t say I’ve stopped loving him but I’ve learned that I am worth loving. I know there is someone out there who’s better for me, someone who loves me and when they realize it, says it.